Archive for August, 2009

Quotes for my day…

What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail?

Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day. You shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense. – Emerson

Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly. – Proverb

The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams. – Eleanor Roosevelt

Be strong. Live honorably and with dignity. When you don’t think you can, HOLD ON. – James Frey


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Wasted Time

I’ve had a long, melancholy day today. I’ve realized things about relationships that I cannot change. My day was spent processing the hurt of being lied to, and the fact that I have wasted so much of my time on a poor investment. My time is valuable, and I spent way too much time pouring myself into someone I wanted to help. Someone who I thought wanted my help. It’s funny, looking back you realize things you should have seen a mile off, but didn’t notice until they smacked you in the face. On top of those realizations, I’ve been processing the fact that someone who was in a leadership role in my life isn’t going to be there anymore because of a poor choice she’s made. Thankfully, someone has stepped in to take her place, but it’s sad to see her go.

I am posting in something that I blogged about last September, and that really struck me while reading today.

“Having said that, I have so many things that I want to write about, but the one thing popping into my head over and over is lonliness. I’ve been reading “Dare to Dream and Work to Win” by Dr. Tom Barrett. The book was a gift from my upline RVP, Renee Weight, for completing a challenge that she gave her team. The chapter that I just finished was about the lonliness of being an entrepreneur. At the time, I didn’t understand what Dr. Barrett meant, but it became crystal clear to me today. While I was out among friends and family, I experienced such an overwhelming feeling of loneliness and sorrow. You see, I have a dream for my life. I’m not satisfied to just make it through one more day…to tread water, just trying to keep my head above the waves. My God gave me a purpose, and it isn’t to waste my days struggling along. I look at the people I care about most and sometimes I am so amazed at the things they say and believe. Part of me wants to grab them and shake them, and the other part of me just wants to turn and walk away. What actually happens, is I stand there silently and just nod with a little half smile. What is the proper response to someone who is so jaded that they can’t see what God has to offer them. I’m not referring to salvation, as many of these people are saved, but instead, the plan he has for their lives. God calls us to lead extraordinary lives, not to worry from month to month how we’ll make the car payment. I get so frustrated by people who are either content in their mediocrity, or too afraid to go for the dream that their God has given them. In Dr. Barrett’s book, he says that we should thankful that we, as entrepreneurs, have extraordinary vision and can see what lies ahead. That we should quit trying to drag everyone along with us if they don’t want to go, but I have such a hard time with that. I find myself looking back over my shoulder at all the people I want with me on this journey and seeing them stuck in the same situation as before. For some it’s debt, for others it’s fear of being hopeful, for others it’s substance abuse, and some have other issues holding them back. I don’t know how to stop looking back. I know that there are people that will never realize their true potential, but it hurts to realize that some of those people are those that I hold most dearly. Is there anyone else that feels this way?”

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Collection of Thoughts

Collection of Thoughts – JJ Heller

I wanted to save the day
I wanted to drown all your sorrows
I did what I thought I should
It didn’t do anyone a bit of good
But I tried

So who do you want me to be
I will give my best effort
And if I succeed consequently I will be the lesser

This is my collection of thoughts
Take it or leave if you want
I can’t be who I’m not anymore
I’ve been wasting my time
Going out of my mind tryin’ to please you
I find it’s never enough

I have grown tired of being afraid to cry
When I live a lie I feel something inside of me die
Then a revelation comes from the inside

‘Cause I am who I am
Who am I to question creation
For whatever it’s worth here is my humble reflection
A collection of thoughts…

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